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[adoptalizard]

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[adoptalizard]

i'm pretty sure threats are threats regardless of my ear for them.

i don't have the lizard form anymore. and the form i do have i'm not using. [ because he can't control it and he's terrified of becoming what he was again. ] anyway i'm pretty sure derek rips out throats for me now

[thekiller]

[he wants to push. wants to beat him into submission and agree into controlling and making it into a reflex. with enough training and force he could probably do it.

he's not gonna tell that to him.]

for a guy you don't like, you sure as hell rely on him a lot.

alright, i won't press. [not now.] but i'm just saying. it's less of a nightmare if you acknowledge yourself as a weapon.

[adoptalizard]

we have a mutually beneficial arrangement

[ another long pause ] i don't want to be a weapon.

[thekiller]

you don't actually have that convenience, but whatever you say, man.

[adoptalizard]

i don't have to be shit. i', not some mindless thing with a master anymore and once i can control this crap, i don't have to use it.

[thekiller]

yes because repression is such a good answer to these kinds of things.

look, i'm just saying: it's an option. you want nothing to do with it, fine. just know that the option is there and it's not a bad idea to know when to use it.

[adoptalizard]

and deciding you're a weapon is better?

consider it noted.

[thekiller]

no. deciding that you're the only one who can control yourself and you're fucking effective as a threat on your own terms is.

note that.

[adoptalizard]

i'm not shit right now. and i'm not seeing how that actually helps with the 7 stages of grief.

[thekiller]

idk, acknowledging you can actually do something about your issues is pretty damn useful.

[adoptalizard]

not anything that changes it.

[thekiller]

suit yourself. i recognize a white flag when i see one. i also recognize narcissistic desperation because it takes one to know one, so with that in mind, good bye.